Expecting But Not Pregnant: Our Journey to Gestational Carrier
I wanted so much to have a child at home, but whenever I pictured myself pregnant, I felt almost frozen in fear. I hated myself for thinking that. When you have always known deep in your soul that you want children, how can you start even thinking of not getting pregnant? I spent so much time in inner turmoil, thinking about how horrible of a person I was. How did I not appreciate my life and the ability to mother a child?