August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Our Journey to Gestational Carrier

I wanted so much to have a child at home, but whenever I pictured myself pregnant, I felt almost frozen in fear. I hated myself for […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Embryo Transfer Day and Signs from Colette

She leaves, I look at the picture, and then all of a sudden, I see it—the sign I needed, something from Colette to let me know […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Will Loss Ever Really End?

I did not expect to feel it so early in the process. I felt like a failure, just like I had felt when I miscarried Sweet […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Anxiety is Alive and Well

 We also talked about how we knew we had made the right choice with G carrying for us, but how it was also frustrating that she […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: 2020 Vision (with Hope and Fear)

Instead, we are planning for a child to come home in early July, but also taking it day by day. We have chosen a completely new […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Onto Plan C? Plan D?

Every time I start to plan or talk about our little LL Cool T arriving in the world, or even scarier, coming home, there is excitement […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: I Already Have a Child

I find myself engaging less and less in small talk and in situations where small talk will arise, because I do not want to answer these […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Support and Connection from Afar

Plus, and this is probably truly the worst part, it shows us that once again, we cannot control well, anything, or at least most things, a […]
August 24, 2021

Parenting After Loss: The Bubble Chapter 2

For me, using a gestational carrier means that I will grieve never being pregnant again. Me being pregnant likely means a very long 40 weeks which […]

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