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August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Complex Emotions

And there is a peace that comes from realizing that you have very little control in the world and that a lot of life really is […]
August 24, 2021

To the Loss Mom Considering Options Other than Pregnancy

The rest of the world may not always feel the same way, but I am here to tell you that if you are reading this thinking […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Birthdays are Tough

Ha! You know that saying about if you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans? Yeah, that proved true. The world moved on and […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Our Journey to Gestational Carrier

I wanted so much to have a child at home, but whenever I pictured myself pregnant, I felt almost frozen in fear. I hated myself for […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Embryo Transfer Day and Signs from Colette

She leaves, I look at the picture, and then all of a sudden, I see it—the sign I needed, something from Colette to let me know […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Will Loss Ever Really End?

I did not expect to feel it so early in the process. I felt like a failure, just like I had felt when I miscarried Sweet […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Anxiety is Alive and Well

 We also talked about how we knew we had made the right choice with G carrying for us, but how it was also frustrating that she […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: 2020 Vision (with Hope and Fear)

Instead, we are planning for a child to come home in early July, but also taking it day by day. We have chosen a completely new […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Onto Plan C? Plan D?

Every time I start to plan or talk about our little LL Cool T arriving in the world, or even scarier, coming home, there is excitement […]