August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Nothing About This is Normal

The OB leaves the room, presumably to talk to someone about the crazy lady who will not just accept that things are going well for this […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: What is Wrong with Me?

Late at night, when my grief wakes me up, the guilt is what actually keeps me awake—the running through every time during the pregnancy that I […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Daydreaming of Time Travel

When Colette was born, whether it was due to my physical recovery, postpartum depression or anxiety, normal fears of being a new mom, fears of having […]
August 24, 2021

To the Loss Mom Considering Options Other than Pregnancy

The rest of the world may not always feel the same way, but I am here to tell you that if you are reading this thinking […]
August 24, 2021

Expecting But Not Pregnant: Onto Plan C? Plan D?

Every time I start to plan or talk about our little LL Cool T arriving in the world, or even scarier, coming home, there is excitement […]
August 24, 2021

Parenting After Loss: The Bubble Chapter 2

For me, using a gestational carrier means that I will grieve never being pregnant again. Me being pregnant likely means a very long 40 weeks which […]
August 24, 2021

Parenting After Loss: Sibling Photos Look Diffferently But Still Invoke the Same Love

August 4, 2021

Simplified: Breastfeeding and Pumping: A Journey in Life, Loss, Pain, and Trauma

As the pumping sessions went on, I felt like a failure, a fraud. Not only had I not carried this child, but now I could not […]
August 3, 2021

Commemorating and Remembering Our Losses

For parents who lose a baby, whether during pregnancy, at birth, or within the first year of life, it is often difficult to figure out how […]